I came from a home where there was physical, verbal, and emotional abuse. I have very few good childhood memories. My father was an alcoholic. Life was not easy growing up. At the age of eight I accepted the Lord Jesus Christ as my personal Savior. I remember my whole family started going to a church where my parents became involved. Everyone thought my family was so wonderful but no one knew what was going on behind closed doors.

In my senior year in high school I met a man much older than I. We ended up getting married and had two beautiful children. Our second child was born sick and needed twenty-four hour a day care. This took a toll on our marriage. During this time I found out that my husband was committing adultery and we ended up getting a divorce.

A few years later I met a man who I thought was a wonderful Christian man. We got married. This man like my father was abusive not only to myself but my children too. I knew from growing up with an abusive father that we had to get away from this man. He was physically, verbally, emotionally, and sexually abusive.

I became depressed through these years. I ended up in a hospital where I was diagnosed with post-traumatic stress disorder and anorexia nervosa.

During this time in my life I felt like God had abandoned me. I blamed God for everything. I never felt loved and wondered how God could love someone like me.

My depression grew worse as did the eating disorder. I came to a point in my life where I just didn't care anymore. I wanted to die. Weighing only seventy some pounds from the eating disorder I admitted myself to the hospital. I was told I probably would not make it.

As I was lying in that hospital bed one night waiting to die a nurse came in to give me my medication. I told her that I didn't want it. I wanted to die. This nurse who I call "my angel" sat and talked with me. She asked me if I believed in God and started quoting Bible verses to me. God in His love, grace, and mercy put me just where He wanted me. For the first time in my life I understood God's love for me and could feel it. It was then that God changed my life.

God loves you too. It doesn't matter what you've done or been through. God wants to have a personal relationship with you.