I tried to control my out of control life
I tried to control my out of control life with supernatural powers and it ended up becoming my tormentor:
Through my teen years my home life was not the best and I was emotionally unstable and was desperately seeking happiness. I turned to the study of the spirit world and thought that the dead could help me with my life.
Many times I would call on them and I even asked if satan would fill me so that I would have all the power I might need. I loved to brag to friends of all the "strange and unusual" experiences I had on a day to day basis. My life seemed exciting from the outside. But, had someone asked me what it was like when I was alone I would have given them a completely different story.
Time alone became like horror flicks. I, once again, needed help.
I heard the plan of salvation at age 16. I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior and the chains of the enemy began to fall off of my soul. My problem was that it took years for me to realize that God is more powerful than satan could ever be. I lived in fear for years. But, as the Bible says; "Seek and you will find ..."
I sought God and asked Him to show me His power. Not because I was seeking thrills but because I needed to know that He could save me from the Hell that I put myself in. God is faithful! I now live in complete freedom through Jesus. He has healed me from my past and has given me a calling to minister to hundreds of teens. I love God with all my heart. He is truly All Powerful and Merciful.
~Ellen
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