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LEARNING TO LISTEN
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We all
know what it's like to get
that phone call in the
middle of the night. This
night was no different.
Jerking up to the ringing
summons, I focused on the
red, illuminated numbers
of my clock. Midnight.
Panicky thoughts filled my
sleep-dazed mind as I
grabbed the receiver.
"Hello?" My heart pounded,
I gripped the phone
tighter and eyed my
husband, who was now
turning to face my side of
the bed.
"Mama?" The voice
answered. I could hardly
hear the whisper over the
static. But my thoughts
immediately went to my
daughter.
When the desperate sound
of a young crying voice
became clear on the line,
I grabbed for my husband
and squeezed his wrist.
"Mama, I know it's late.
But don't... don't say
anything until I finish.
And before you ask, yes
I've been drinking. I
nearly ran off the road a
few miles back and..."
I drew in a sharp, shallow
breath, released my
husband and pressed my
hand against my forehead.
Sleep still fogged my
mind, and I attempted to
fight back the panic.
Something wasn't right.
"...And I got so scared.
All I could think of was
how it would hurt you if a
policeman came to your
door and said I'd been
killed. I want... to come
home. I know running away
was wrong. I know you've
been worried sick. I
should have called you
days ago but I was
afraid... afraid..."
Sobs of deep-felt emotion
flowed from the receiver
and poured into my heart.
Immediately I pictured my
daughter's face in my
mind, and my fogged senses
seemed to clear, "I think
---"
"No! Please let me finish!
Please!" She pleaded, not
so much in anger, but in
desperation. I paused and
tried to think what to
say. Before I could go on,
she continued. "I'm
pregnant, Mama. I know I
shouldn't be drinking
now...especially now, but
I'm scared, Mama. So
scared!"
The voice broke again, and
I bit into my lip, feeling
my own eyes fill with
moisture. I looked up at
my husband, who sat
silently mouthing, "Who is
it?"
I shook my head and when I
didn't answer, he jumped
up and left the room,
returning seconds later
with a portable phone held
to his ear. She must have
heard the click in the
line because she asked,
"Are you still there?
Please don't hang up on
me! I need you. I feel so
alone."
I clutched the phone and
stared at my husband,
seeking guidance. "I'm
here, I wouldn't hang up,"
I said.
"I should have told you,
Mama. I know I should have
told you. But, when we
talk, you just keep
telling me what I should
do. You read all those
pamphlets on how to talk
about sex and all, but all
you do is talk. You don't
listen to me. You never
let me tell you how I
feel. It is as if my
feelings aren't important.
Because you're my mother
you think you have all the
answers. But sometimes I
don't need answers. I just
want someone to listen."
I swallowed the lump in my
throat and stared at the
how-to-talk-to-your-kids
pamphlets scattered on my
nightstand. "I'm
listening," I whispered.
"You know, back there on
the road after I got the
car under control, I
started thinking about the
baby and taking care of
it. Then I saw this phone
booth and it was as if I
could hear you preaching
to me about how people
shouldn't drink and drive.
So I called a taxi. I want
to come home."
"That's good honey," I
said, relief filling my
chest. My husband came
closer, sat down beside me
and laced his fingers
through mine.
"But you know, I think I
can drive now."
"No!" I snapped. My
muscles stiffened and I
tightened the clasp on my
husband's hand. "Please,
wait for the taxi. Don't
hang up on me until the
taxi gets there."
"I just want to come home,
Mama."
"I know. But do this for
your mama. Wait for the
taxi, please."
I listened to the silence
in fear. When I didn't
hear her answer, I bit
into my lip and closed my
eyes. Somehow I had to
stop her from driving.
"There's the taxi now."
Only when I heard someone
in the background asking
about a Yellow Cab did I
feel my tension easing.
"I'm coming home, Mama."
There was a click, and the
phone went silent. Moving
from the bed, tears
forming in my eyes, I
walked out into the hall
and went to stand in my 16
year old daughter's room.
My husband came from
behind, wrapped his arms
around me and rested his
chin on the top of my
head.
I wiped the tears from my
cheeks. "We have to learn
to listen," I said to him.
He studied me for a
second, and then asked,
"Do you think she'll ever
know she dialed the wrong
number?"
I looked at our sleeping
daughter, then back at
him. "Maybe it wasn't such
a wrong number."
"Mom, Dad, what are you
doing?" The muffled voice
came from under the
covers. I walked over to
my daughter, who now sat
up staring into the
darkness. "We're
practicing," I answered.
"Practicing what?" she
mumbled and laid back on
the mattress, but her eyes
already closed in slumber.
"Listening," I whispered
and brushed a hand over
her cheek.
- Source Unknown
Submitted by
Bob Johnson
  
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